it's official!!!

it's official. i am depressed. the reason i do not know. maybe boredom. boredom that made me stay in bed for hours and hours. and to make it worse. i eat! i eat a lot! i have gained too much lbs already. it isn't noticeable yet, but i can feel it!

maybe there is a scientific explanation behind that. you're depressed so you eat. and when you eat you get heavier. and when you're heavier physically. you become heavier emotionally. and you get more and more depressed... fuck i am in a cycle!!!

oh crap! see. i'm not even making sense...alright... i'll get going... i still have plenty of plates to empty!!!

written february 18, 2008 (and i still feel the same)