optimist - pessimist you choose!

I am writing this as an answer to my friend's blog.

I didn't know the effect of everything that i said yesterday until i read your blog. i intend to answer everything you have written and try to rationalize it.

But before that i just want to tell you that it is so nice to know that there are still people like you. Optimistic, idealistic and romantic. Don't stop being one. If there is one thing i would want to be... AGAIN, it's to be one like you.

Hopeful. Young. (but seriously you have to take it down a notch)

IMMATURE. You are not, you started enjoying your newfound sexuality in 2002. So following the traditional calendar, you are on your 6th year as a gay person. You are still in the learning phase. Your being pesky is comparable to a kid in a department store who didn't get what he want. (a toy car perhaps?)

"You were still in a cocoon, while we were busily fluttering around flowers" Since we're talking metaphors, i will stick with this. while we were fluttering around flowers, we realized that not all of them taste sweet. There are a couple of flowers who are very appealing to our eyes, but as we sink our teeth into it (yes, i know butterflies do not have teeth), they are everything but sweet. this is your first bit of disappointment there are more to come.

Things shouldn't be forced. Imagine kids playing with a new toy car. They explore a thousand other ways on how to enjoy that. And they always end up ruining the whole thing. We exert too much effort turning a very good friendship into a relationship that will never be. In our attempt to do that we ruin the whole thing. Tears and sweat altogether.

As a third party. Do not demand. Need i say more? Just always think about this. YOU are better than the legal wife. Logic behind, I will not leave the bed to sleep in the couch.

Act like him. Be like him. Don't. Being like us requires a lot of hard work and like you said we seem heartless. you wouldn't want to be heartless right?

There will come a time that you will be just like him. Maybe yes, maybe no. This is your choice. It's too tiring being positive and hopeful and very disappointing might i add. We chose to be like this. we have stopped exerting effort. we have stopped fighting. we chose APATHY. You said that the world is so unfair and uncompromising, so, why would we compromise? hehehhe...

Be realistic and stop using your heart. Dude the heart is an organ. It does not tell you anything. You are an intelligent person i suppose you already know that. bwahahahahah!

You will fully understand these things outside or when you are finally defeated. Yes you will understand but you don't have to wait until your defeated.

If he choose to let you go, let go... Like what i said stay away, but not to far. You just have to play our game. Believe me it is always a turn on if someone is playing hard to get.

This lifestyle is so not gay at all. Its very hurtful and challenging

To be gay is to be an oxymoron.

This is me talking. I am not claiming that what i know or all these are applicable to everyone. i have no intentions to generalize. Maybe you have to stop listening to me. hehheheheh!